Just a brief outline of who I am, where I am from, what I have done. Which I will eventually expand on. I am being highly self-indulgent with my blog – it’s for ME and me alone, however I am quite quite happy to share it with the world. But must warn you, you may be bored as it will be self centred, all about me, mine, for me, by me, selfish, self-absorbed, self-opinionated and opinionated etc.
I also want to try to trigger memories. I have a terrible memory and want to try out some exercises to release all those bits of information that are stuck within my mind, but that are coated with something that causes them to stay in the darkest parts of my memory.
I am hoping that by writing and getting my creative juices flowing, that those juices will wash away and clean up the sticky suppressant that I have coated my memories with and allow them to rise up and free themselves from me and allow me to feel them and see them and be them. I just might end up being someone a bit different to who I currently am.
Don’t get me wrong, I quite like myself! However I am highly aware of my faults and I want to work on those. I think that will take time, effort and some self discipline. What better way to start forming self discipline into a habit than to start to write a daily or weekly piece? Allowing my mind to flow and to move and to de-stagnate?
I am just about to become 45 years of age. I have lived probably at least half if not more of my life and it is high time that I took charge of myself. Not going to be easy, because taking charge of something that has 45 years of learned and self-learned behaviour is like trying to take charge of a moving ship and trying to turn it around with a piece of string. Or is that too negative an analogy? Possibly.
Now, should I force myself to write X amount of words a day? Or a week? Should I structure this is that sort of way? Or should I really go with the flow? I don’t think so. I think a combo of the two. I know what I am like and going with the flow without a bit of discipline just ain’t gonna work. I have to set myself a task. So, I must write and post at least once a week on this here McFangus Blog. That is my promise to me. Once a week. It can be more but never less.
And I can write what I like and how I like. I just want the juice to start flowing. One day, I might be able to post some blog entries that make sense – even good sense! But at the moment I am not going to give myself a hard time about any of that. Just write, just flow, just get it all out.
So, here goes….
I also want to try to trigger memories. I have a terrible memory and want to try out some exercises to release all those bits of information that are stuck within my mind, but that are coated with something that causes them to stay in the darkest parts of my memory.
I am hoping that by writing and getting my creative juices flowing, that those juices will wash away and clean up the sticky suppressant that I have coated my memories with and allow them to rise up and free themselves from me and allow me to feel them and see them and be them. I just might end up being someone a bit different to who I currently am.
Don’t get me wrong, I quite like myself! However I am highly aware of my faults and I want to work on those. I think that will take time, effort and some self discipline. What better way to start forming self discipline into a habit than to start to write a daily or weekly piece? Allowing my mind to flow and to move and to de-stagnate?
I am just about to become 45 years of age. I have lived probably at least half if not more of my life and it is high time that I took charge of myself. Not going to be easy, because taking charge of something that has 45 years of learned and self-learned behaviour is like trying to take charge of a moving ship and trying to turn it around with a piece of string. Or is that too negative an analogy? Possibly.
Now, should I force myself to write X amount of words a day? Or a week? Should I structure this is that sort of way? Or should I really go with the flow? I don’t think so. I think a combo of the two. I know what I am like and going with the flow without a bit of discipline just ain’t gonna work. I have to set myself a task. So, I must write and post at least once a week on this here McFangus Blog. That is my promise to me. Once a week. It can be more but never less.
And I can write what I like and how I like. I just want the juice to start flowing. One day, I might be able to post some blog entries that make sense – even good sense! But at the moment I am not going to give myself a hard time about any of that. Just write, just flow, just get it all out.
So, here goes….
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